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NEW JOURNAL... imonlyagurl06... im gonna start useing it.... even tho this one has my life in it... *TEAR*
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[16 Feb 2004|06:17pm] |
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well i do say this weekend was incredable... brenden u made it awesome but... Im sorry it had to end like this... I kno sumtimes im not always the one to screw things up, this one took tooooo. But n e ways it was a great weekend but yesterday we came home to find that my brother threw a party here when I was gone. But Hey parents leave next tuesday for vacation and its me n my brother and were gonna have fun... sweett.... but then um today was okay got to school 1st hour i talked to sam the wholeeee hour bout stuff... I love her so much. She wants to go to the britney spears concert to, i really wanna go but i dont kno i feel like she would probly wanna go with sumone in her grade or sumthing, but i dunno it shall be fun. thats about it that happened today... nothing nothing blah blah... oh 6th hour i couldnt stop laguhing bc liz gave me this lip keychain for valentines day friday and i had it in my purse and it kept whisteling and i needed to close my purse but it wouldnt work well bc it was hitting sumthing and i got it takin away... *sigh* but n e ways.... okay i hope american idol is on tonight... but if not then 7th heaven is... well im out. good bye.
Oh ya.... "iv changed. Im not who i use to be" Im just different... as people say.................
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[13 Feb 2004|02:39pm] |
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Today was so great... 1st hour was great. me ronnie corey lisa monica and ken all talked... about jessica simpson.. ahah and she bangs she bangs. lol but then 2nd hour... free day... me tabatha n kelly talked... lol woah. oh then we talked to the teacher cuz she came by us and she explained the whole mafia thing.. lol.... then french was kinda boring ... same teacher.. but talked to cassie nick and josh. Then 4th hour... uhh boring... 5th hour.. shit omg lol liz gave me these lil lip key chain that whistels.. lol i kept pushing it and it kept whisteling and mr ceo was all laughing and i started laughing sooo loud i was woah.... lol lindzay me n shana kept making everyone look for what the whisteling thing was... it lasted forever... ahah... guess u had to be there... then sarah gave me sum tanning lotiona and i turned red from it ahhhhh then 6th hour english. OKAY last semister i turned a paper into bommarito and got a A- and then i turned the same thing into butler... and i got a 52%! Ya i was pissed but i still have a C... so at least im not failing.. at least one teacher knows my grades...
BuT NoWWWwWWWwWw... im gonna go pack bc ME N MY BABII ARE GOING UP NORTH WITH HIS SISTER AND HER BOYFRIEND... im so exCITEd... AHHH
I LUV BRENDEN............................................................................with all my heart.... *smiles*
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TODAY WAS TTHHHEEE worst day! Uhh I cried whole 4th hour!. I fuckin hate everything. The teacher was like wahts wrong and i lied. Then I went to get my grades. Its the worst feeling of crying in front of sumone. But sumtimes u cant help it... Then 5th hour did nothing 6th hour only got worse. 1st hour was the best part of the day, i did absolutly nothing but talk to the teacher while the broadcast. then 2nd hour me n mandah got moved for tlaking but we got to sit by eachother. 3rd hour... felt aweful.. my day sucked... I HATE HER... I wish sumone knew how things are.... Im not acting like sumone and saying my life is hell everything is wrong... I just feel over stressed about things and its all getting to me. Like right now...
Well bye.... IM DONE....
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ya this week wasnt all that great. monday i called my french/history teacher stupid... I got in big touble. and lectured. jeez... teachers can get really mean. today was scary frickin the english teacher came up to me and whispered to me and asked me to stay after class... I got shitty scaredless. uh it was awefull... i guess what im saying is iv been getting in alot of trouble. But like not little trouble. big but im not gonna write about it. me liz and gina are having picnics lately. its fun... but ummm ya shit sucks... i want it back.... I want it all back, back to the way it use to all be, it was perfect
I hate her with everything I have
I wanna do what u do to me
That one day when shes gone. ill get my chance to be with u.then ill show u.
my colorful life...
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[07 Feb 2004|10:30pm] |
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Friday school sucked... oh but ahaha... 1st hour ahah this gurl cracked me up we talked the whole hour and we told eachother our funny and embarrassing stories and ahaha i won... lol not saying which one... ronnie was dieing laughing but ya lol... then 2nd hour talked to kelly and tabatha... and then ya thats it about... oh math i talked to lindzay. Um well liz came home with me and on the bus ahaha i was talking about how president tuxido i wanna work there and i was like ill just get the ruler out... everyone started laughing and then we came back ate.... boogers... ahah nvm then we made up our spice gurls dance and song for montreal... aha and man was that fun. then she left. and then i was jsut getting ready to lay down cuz i was tired and gabbie called so we went to the show to see the butterfly effect.. omgsh i screamed so loud... ahhhh i hate that movie and let me tell u.... im still scared... only at night time tho, well mostly. Then um after words... omgsh it was like a reunion there.. I seen mike organ, tommy kotchman, mark puma, and this other guy i forget his name. But um yea then ronnie was up there to and detwain, and others erica jarret... and i seen erica at the mall today to but im out...
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Nothing new. Today sucked bc i got yelled at 2784572350723 times. I cant help but talk in class it just bores me. Yesterday i got moved in history and had to sit next to the weird ppl, but then in french we got new seats and i just talked to jamie the hole time but then i got yelled at and jamie started laughing really hard and goes she hates u and i go SHE HATES U TO. it was funny. Today in french me n cassie were working together and the teacher yelled at us when we were actually doing french. uhh its screwed up. But then yesterday in math shit. This gurl ... i just sprayed my body spray and i spray it like 10 times a class, everyone knows that and she goes uhh i smell krissys body spray and i just looked at her and then she goes uh now its in my mouth, and mr ceo was at my desk looking at my h/w and I go well GOOD, CHOKE ON IT. and the teacher honestly just laughed but uh i hate ppl sumtimes. I have so many weird feelings. I duno i talked to tabatha and kelly all 2nd hour today, i love them. damn tabatha is so pretty i hate her, but shes awesome.
Sometimes I just wish i could change, but when i do it doesnt work, it just gets worse.
I made sketches... its weird. u wouldnt understand tho.
No one comment on my journal n e more I hate ppl!
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[29 Jan 2004|06:16pm] |
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Nothing new, 2nd hour history was fun. I luv that teacher. We had the best topic we talked about... we all got into it lol... ya... well im gonna go bc i got to do a report and i have 3 articles do tomorrow, then after school im going to liz's and then going to her dads for the night FO SHO!... lalalala..
Im happy me n paige are back to best friends... It was all over sumthing thats outa the picture now... its over.
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[28 Jan 2004|09:31pm] |
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I lied. I feel horrable. I miss itt... I cant explain it.
Well heres whats been "happening' nothing thrilling. Today in french we played the name game. josh thought of a good one for himself and me. I didnt appriciate that tho. Well me n paige made up yesterday, i broke thru. I called her. I hate like 5 freshman at my school. I swear to god. But then i say to myself... there freshman. Thats bull shit. But i hate them.. one day i will do sumthing..... I WILL.
Everyone can go to hell... they all suck, sumday sumone will shit on u. And when it happens... Ill be the first to laugh. I hate hate hate hate hate hate everything.......................................................................................................................................................................................................................................... ecpecially tomorrow.........................................................................................................................................im sorry about tomorrow.!.!.!.!..............................................................................................................
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[22 Jan 2004|08:28pm] |
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Wellll... today we were suppose to do the broadcast but then right when it came to my turn they go well good going guys the bell rangur outa time, so i think were gonna have to do it all tomorrow. But what ever, I dont even care n e more. Then um 2nd hour looked at the teachers wedding pictures, there was sum cute ones. Then 3rd hour i got yelled at 50000 times. And then she said to amy... amy shima are u not far away enuf from krissy and amy was like no im far enough bc u kno what she did!!... she moved everyone around me away from me I was like hey dude im still gonna talk to them it doesnt matter. So yea then when we were working amy was sitting next to me she let her.. and i was asking her how to spell a word and the teacher goes amy go back to ur seat. Thats shit. I hate those classes. I cant wait to get my schedual changed... hopefulley monday.. thats my appointment. But uhhh man.. It just pisses me off.. But theres sum things that i just dont understand. I dont understand why i do certain stuff. I try to help sumone out but then in the long run i just hurt myself. Im not even going there about that story today. Well then everything was fine except 6th hour, mrs. butler isnt that bad, most ppl are like switch out. shes not that bad. But the good thing is is shes giving us this papper to do and i did one exactly like it last semister for mrs bommarito so i already have mine done. score!! but then uhh this gurl next to me i forgot her name but we were laughing t this one gurl ahead of us.. .eww im not saying what she was doing bc it was nasty. But then this guy next to me... uhh ihate ppl that breath outa nose really loud. And this gurl next to me was getting pissed to. and then he would like inhale his snots and i was like ewww... and he goes what .. what a jerk. so then he was sleeping and he frickin was snoring or sumthing... i dunno and so i slapped his arm really hard and whisper... HEY WAKE UP THATS SHIT, IM SICK OF HEARING U MAKE ANNOYING NOISES. But ya that pissed me off. Well... we got our family pic's back today. i hate them bc i feel like ilook ugly.. but nothings gonna change n e ways, but then the rest of the family likes them. BYE!
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| Long time no talk. |
[20 Jan 2004|09:04pm] |
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Okay well, umm everything is much better I talked to the person who ... ya and its all good now. Well then that night or sumthing bree spent the night again and we went up to premier with the boys and gort hid on my a 40 year old. that was nasty. Then the boys walked us home. Um then yesterday i dont even remember. Or n e of the other days. But then Um today oh jeezz.. new schedual. Homeroom talked to the same people. Then 1st hour found out that i was the birthday greeting person for the broadcast, im scared. Thursday... big day. then 2nd hour pappalardo, omg i thought i wouldn no n e one i walked in there and i was like MANDERS lol and i started screaming and the teacher like hit her head and goes ohhh noo.. lol she knows im gonna talk no matter what. Then I found out that kelly is in 2 classes of mine, from my old school, thats weird. But umm french i talked to amy. No ones in that class n e more. Then i um lunch boring, talked to nicole and amy, then biology, sarina's in my class. But i talked to michelle and sum other ppl but of course i dont remember there names and then frickin math i get in there adn me n nicole get on the teachers bad side the first 5 min bc we didnt understand the work he gave us. That was gay. Then we talked the whole time and then butler. For english it was kinda fun i walked in there I was like HIII and the teacher gave me this look. Then me hailee and grant sarah and kelly talked. Man lol the teacher goes, im practically perfect and uhh shes so weird. It was so funny tho. I can just tell that class is gonna be fun. But i think that teacher likes me tho... thats a good thing well then i just back from sum hawian resteraunt called waves. and my grandparents and my family went there. lol there was ppl going around doing the hula. kinda interesting. then on the way home me my parents and my brotehr were in the car and it was all this old music playing and then i started singing it really loud and weird like i do on the way home from school. sum ppl kno what im talking about and everyone was laughing at me it was funny. But ya... so here i am and i lost my voice. *tear* but im done... some ppl just piss me off... Thankgod they dont go to are school.
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I tried to make things look good. It didnt work as I planned. I just screwed it up. Im sorry. I didnt mean for u to take it this way. It was not my intention. At all. Ur right. I think to highly of myself. But Ill stop. Just for u. So maybe youll accept me for something Im not.
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Well yesterday was a snowday it was awesome. Well Gabbie and Bree came over and we got ready dancing to the music.. YOU ARE MY SUNSHINE lol then we ate and then went sledding, at the first hill we stole a sled for sumone, lol then we went down together and i flipped over bree and gabbie went flying in the air it was funny, but then we were numb so we went to the hill on the golfcourse. Alright, grant or jeff never told us that courntey was gonna be there and melanie. But they were. I knew it, i told bree n gabbie that i knew that they had to be there cuz why else would the boys want us to go. So then we had an attitude towards them bc of course bc they were being gay about everything and acting as if we werent allowed to talk to the boys, so w/e then we left and then we went back there saying well were not gonna let them spoil are fun. So we did. then the gurls left adn it was us and jeff grant brandon and john and we had this like 2 hour long restling match. then went back to grants house then me n gabbie n bree came back to my house. Then gabbie left and bree spent the night. Oh jeez. We couldnt sleep for the life of us, everytime we were about to jeff would text message us or my brother would turn on the radio loud or start doing pushups and clapping so we were pissed. we went to sleep finally about off 2. got up and 530 went to school. Took my french test which i wasnt ready for, then math test which i so failed. Then came home. Talked to my brother about sum stuff. My family is being stupid. So i talked to him about it all. Then took a nap did sum h/w then went to grants with john, came back home went out with my mom to the store, came back. then ange'l n jackie came over, talked, then now here i am. Me n paige are fighting again. You kno, wev been fighting so much, its like not worth it n e more. Im sick of it. She tells me all this stuff that just doesnt make sence.She always ditches me for chris, she doesnt get it, shes like no i dont. But then we make plans and II always call her and i say r u still comming over and she goes oh well i havent seen chris in a while. Uh That pisses me off. I mean i never said we gotta hang out everyday but we use to, and then now its like once a week. but i never said we had to. But ever since shes been going out with chris things changed. So if she wants to let a guy cme betweenus then fuck, let her. But then i dont kno, breann has helped me thru so much, i mean we talked literally when we were trying to sleep for about 5 hours about everything. It was cool. And paige if u read this, dont forget i talk to these ppl all the time in school. its not like i just pulled them outa my ass or sumthing like u think. But uhh she pisses me off. Bree I love u tho. dino's for life. Im also glad... that next semister, tuesday were switching classes and its just me n bree in there. So we'll talk all the more. aha. well then this weekend bree is comming up north with me to snowmabiel.. woo lol then the next weekend im staying with her at her dads house. Im excited. I have so much on my mind, but soon...... it will be over. Nothing ever lasts forever. And Im not gonna let paige piss me off. And she actually told me that i act like a bitch. I dont, i just dont like taken advantage of.!.!.!.!
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[14 Jan 2004|08:25pm] |
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I cant get over how much snow there is. Like all the sudden, it just hit. But um today was okay. I talked to courtney on the bus. I kno that even when u talk to sumone and tell them not to talk bout u that there gonna do it no matter what, but maybe next time she'll think twice. But I thought i handeled it nice. I said what I needed to and thats it. But then I kno she talked to melanie about me. but thats gay, i mean grow up guys. ur freshman, highschool shouldnt be like that. well Im not even gonna waste my time writing about a frickin freshman that shit talks me. But yesterday bree.. uhuhuhuhahauh lets have sum fun, lets go find a book to read. ahaha bree i heart u. But then 1st hour exams went well. I got 9 wrong outa 100. 91, thats not bad, but i did do fairly poor on my english one. But all day iv been studying and reviewing and h/w .. honestly all day thats what i did. Its gay. But tomorrow is gonna suck. I have french and Math. Math... i kno im gonna bomb it. theres no way to even study it tho. Then french, im so not ready for. the teacher asked if I wanted her to help me with it and of course i said no, but now im gonna have to lose in the respect of not knowing it. So ya here i am. Nothings new. Just alot is changing around this house. Not getting into it, i dont feel like getting in another bad mood.
Todays story... I swear everyday sumthing weird happens to me, well i was being nice and shoveling for my parents and grandparents and well.. I was at my house shoveling the drive way and i hit one of those cracks in the sement.. and the shovel jammed into my stomach and i flipped, literly i flipped over the shovel and landed on my side.. ya that kinda hurt.. but my brother was laughing at me.
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Woah today was awesome... 1st hour uhh well talked to bree and ya. 2nd hour talked to liz and passed notes. 3rd hour did more review in french and got like none right. 4th hour worked on extra credit with bree and dee. 5th hour talked talked talked 6th hour was great. julie kembra gabby stacie all them ppl left me! lol so me matt and this one guy i forgot his name... lol sorry well we just bs'ed the whole time and the teacher was like are u dont im like ya i am... lol i lied and but then i told her how i cant concentrate. Being honest with a teacher pays off once in a while, cuz then she helped me. *snickers* lol then we were telling stories and this one annoying gurl was like dont show the teacher and shes like what.. i was like who cares i always tell her my stories, shes cool like that. lol trying to suck up like bommarito told me and it worked. so that was great but i have stories to tell. i was late for 6th hour again but this time is a better excuse then singing in the bathroom... lol my locker was being gay and my bookbag strap was hanging out so i kicked my locker and it came back and smacked me in the face... it hurt like hell... i screamed. But then ohh this morning the bus driver ahaha hes like im sick of finding porn pictures on the bus of naked ladies giving a head job.. we all laughed. lol and then i told the french teacher. ahaha.. guess u had to be there. but then um bree came home with me after school and it was a blast.. man bffe gurly. lol where do i start. she came over and we both have so much in common we talked about but im not putting it bc its embarrassing but theres like 20 things. its nice to kno that ur not alone, or that u kno theres sumone else out there like u but then um we went to wendys and stuff with jeff n grant. lol omgsh! Courtney and melanie are starting stuff with me. Bc Im not allowed to hang out with grant and jeff... even tho i introduced them. thats gay. But w/e im not gonna let sum freshman bother me. Thats so stupid i mean grow up. Well then we went to courtneys house and rang the doorbell and put "george" in front of there house. so me n bree were like omg were gonna put apple juice in front of grants house. lol. *inside joke* then we came back to my house and just talked... then we went to grants.. chilled then me n breann came back here and kinda studied. today was so fun tho. But this weekend im going to bree's dads house. Im excited. well i hope my mom will let me go... but i dunno it would be nice. SO n e ways.. i gotta study more.. but at least the french/history teacher knows that im not understanding everything right? i mean its better to be honest then hide it. The sad thing is, everyday i get sick to go to school to put up with the same stuff and it gets old. I mean its gay always worring bout shit talkers or grades. uhh.. i dunno how to explain it.. well tomorrows exams are broadcasting and english 10. so wish me luck guys. i get out at 10:18! woot woot..
oh ya me n bree were singing and dancin around my room that was fun then this lil boy was comming off the bus and we opened the window and go HEY YOU GUYS... lol then she said sum stuff... it was great. bffe bree.
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1st hour all i did was talk to bree and gabbie. 2nd hour was gay. 3rd hour lets see how many times did i get yelled at? like 5! and then on top of that i got like so many wrong on that pre test thing. Everyone was laughing at me, then lunch boring. 4th boring and she yelled at me for writing on my book, 5th hour uhhi dont even wanna go there. 6th hour lets see i went in the bathroom before hand and no one was in there so i started singing and then after words i noticed a teacher was in there and she heard me singing that was embarrassing. Then 6th hour talked to jules and stacy the whole time.. kembra.. u left me. So then ya.. this is gay im like gonna fall asleep and i have so much h/w! its never gonna happen and tomorrow bree is suppose to come over.. so ya.. bye! *angers*
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Alright, well yesterday in the middle of the entry grant called, okay but n e ways, me, grant, jeff, n brandon went up to wendys/tim hortons. So we talked about stuff and then I called Bree and she talked to jeff.. Aww.. and then i said sumthing dont remember what and grant was being a smart ass and he did this thing where his head turned and his neck was long.. lol nvm guess u had to be there, but then they dropped me off home, and then I finished packing then went picked up paige, dropped my stuff off at her house and then we were on our way to the De La Salle dance. Boi oh boi was that crazy, lol paige pointed at me and goes this is the gurl thats just like me... ahaha lol okay u had to be there for that one also. well I saw Mike my cousin there.. aw i havent seen him in lke ages. But i talked to him for a lil bit and then paige went to put her purse on the bleachers and she missed a step and fell and like rolled down and smacked this juinor gurl on her back and the guy was like woah i think u had a little much to drink and ahahah me n beth were laughing sooo hardd.. and then she like sank and like layed between the two bleechers and i went on the one below her and hugged her and the ppl thought we were lesbiens and ohh it was so funny. Then i broke the sink in the bathroom, I turned in on but then it wouldnt shut off then i smacked my head really hard on the box ahaha.. had to be there for that one to. Then on the dance floor the ladiez song came on and we were all going at it... ladiez hands up... okay ill stop... OMGSH KEMBRA OUR SPICE GURL SONG CAME ON!. AHAHA we were all dancing so funny to that one.. so tell me what u want what u really really want ill tell u wat i want what i really really waht I wanna i wanna. lol AHAHA.. then they played the im a barbi grl in a barbiiiii worlldd... kembra our other song. lol. Great times tho. But im actually very much dreading school tomorrow. I just finished my "debate" paper for english and now im gonna study for mid-terms and cleann my room... then yea but last night me n paige got like no sleep bc of what happened.. but no im not putting what did... LMAO WERE SO BAD.. lol... omgsh. okay but ya i think its over cuz im a lil happy gurl today even tho i got like 2 hours a sleep lol.
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Okay well tonight im going to the delasal dance with paige. And were gonna meet my cousins up there. Then after were gonna go back to her house and spend the night there. Im kinda looking forward to talking bc we havent seen eachother in like 6 days, thats a record. But were losing touch. So tonight would be cool. But see Bree n Gabbie were suppose to come over yesterday but they didnt and i really wanted to introduce them to Grant, Jeff, n Brandon. But then grant just called me and said do u want to do sumthing cuz jeff n brandon is over and then i was like no bc gabbie and bree arent here. And its so confusing. I mean im happy that chris is going out with paige and i really hope they last, i really do, but then were going to a dance tonight and shes like we can not tell chris, we cant. he'll get so mad, i mean i think she should tell him that were going there so he doesnt get mad but its not my choice to. So bree is suppose to come over tomorrow around 12, but i doubt it bc then i just got off the phone with jeff and him n brandon are leaving around then to go to there hockey game. Uhh its so confusing, too much is happening at once... It shouldnt be like this.. I just wanna ______ nvm.
Today i got up, went to look at our family pic's with the family and we picked which ones we liked, so they should be in, in like 3 weeks, but now grant just called and im going out with him brandon n jeff so ill finish when i get back
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I was left... In the cold. But thats okay. Right I mean, its only me? I have this huge feeling like of emptyness in my stomach, and its beggening to get me quit sick. Like im missing a big part of sumthing inside. I just hate how people think bc at school im always happy, doesnt mean I have opinions or n e thing, i just keep them to myself and try not to talk about them. At school im so happy, (sumtimes) and then stupid ppl have to try to bring me down... well hey guys it worked! Then a teacher told me today... Krissy doesnt ur mouth ever get tired? At home im a completely different person like I hate everything. But then after just seeing what I saw... I dont kno if i even want to go on, its not even worth it. I mean watching sumone uv grown up with, known forever, seems like its just slowly dieing... Ya-- no u dont get it. Its missing and I want it back. I always say oh I wanna be like that person, shes so skinny, I wanna be like her shes so pretty. I mean I just wanna be like one of those people that dont have a worry, that can be a twig and not even get ready for school but still look nice. But its not me. I guess im saying i want to change. But then again other ppl alaways tell me no u cant change. But im not satisified and i guess thats what counts.But then I think she looks so happy all the time, I wanna kno what goes on in her life. But then people might think the same about me I guess bc Im always happy at school. But then I think Its like im in my own little world. I mean just think about it. Ur life is ur own, no one else will know n e of ur secrets or special things about u, I mean its weird. But I feel as if sumones in control of me. As if im not running my own life! Im probly not making sence. But heres a song...
She was daddys gurl. He would come home from work and see a huge smile on her face, over the years its disappeared.. Its depressing, its like a good song to cut ur wrists to or sumthing.
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Well morning was pretty boring but french. Lol that was soo funny.!.! omgsh me amanda and liz were talking to chris and chris pulls out liz's purse and ahaha..and he took a cell phone out. and im like i have that one except mines bigger and its battery lights up. And me n the gurls started dieing laughing and chris was like huhh... and So then me n the gurls couldnt stop lauhing and then he finally got it and mrs. pappalardo was like whats so funny and chris told her. Ahahah. lol shes like chris i think its u thats perverted bc chris was like ur sick ur sick ur sick. lol it was way funny. Then 6th hour was great to, gabby came back to sit by me and now theres a series of things that happened. okay so I dunno mrs pappalardo was walking around the room and then me n kembra and gabby were talking and she walked by me and stopped and so i looked at her and shes like how come when ever i come over here u stop talking. And I was liek bc u always yell at me and shes like no i dont... blah blah but then I dunno today she was really cool about that, I seen a totally different side of her today. She was so nice and we actually talked about things.!.! Yaaa! Cuz i told her i was trying to switch bc i have her for 2nd n 3rd hour and shes like aw why are u switching and i go bc u like hate me, and shes like i dont hate u, i actually like u, and im was like so suprised she told me that i was like speachless. But then shes like why dont u wanna have me? I dunno at least she knows now about how i thought she hated me bc she was always so mean bout most things to me. But n e ways... gabby was lookin in my purse and she sees these like pain reliever things and shes like menthol? whats that mean im like i dunno and shes like isnt liek a smoking patch? im like i dunno so that was funny tho, and then what else.. oh i asked the teacher if i could go to the bathroom and shes liek ya so i whisper to george to go to the bathroom like 3 mins later hes still not there so i come back to class and thats when he was asking the teacher if he could go and she said yes so he was going so i hid under gabbys table as he walked out. lol umm oh i crawled on the floor to gabbys table that was great. I told me n chelles fingure story to everyone bc these definisions for the exam we were studying were like ragtime and the fingure story came up my gabby putting in quotations "the woman question" ahaha that was so funny, but im really glad that mrs pappalardo doesnt hate me! *smile* cuz my counceler wont let me switch. But then me n kembra after class were walking thru the halls and I go HEY YOU GUYSSSS really loud. Ahaha. Umm oh me n liz talked to mrs bom today! I love bommarito. But i dont mean to keep bringing it up but if pappalardo is really like this then shes like awesome! lol today i was like YA pappalardo u told me u were going to get me a muzzel and i dunno u had to be there for most of this stuff... it was great.. well okay BREE for sure is comming over but then gabby might to so yaa!!! ill write laterand NO ONE CAN BRING ME DOWN TODAY....!
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